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Izhhar Iskandar
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| | Current Music: | Robyn - Be Mine! (Live From The Cherrytree House) | | Security: | | | Subject: | hurt | | Time: | 03:32 am | | Current Mood: |  depressed |
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| | I hate today so much. It's really sad to know how much you've changed. What you said to me, that was just.... I hope you've realized what you've done. I gave you my everything. Still stuck by your side while you tell me about hose other guys. Do you know how hard it is? I bet you don't wan when you told me "that". That done it for me. That shattered my heart into a million pieces love. As much as i love you, i can't run away from the fact that that generated some hatred. How could you..... I loved you and you knew. I tried so hard. I threw away my pride just to be yours again but all you did was trample on it. I walked home and that was the longest walk in my life. So many things running through my mind.... Should is stay or should i go? That question keeps popping up in my head. I mean how could you. 2 years down the drain just like that? How could you be so heartless.... This is just not you. I refuse to believe that this is you. The you i knew... As i was walking home, tears rolled down my cheeks. That's how hurt i was. All the things you said to me are nothing but lies? How foolish i was for being so naive and believing them. I don't understand why you won't believe me. I chose you over her. I don't know how else to prove it to you. BUT WHAT DID I FUCKING DO TO DESERVE THIS? WHY DID YOU DO "THAT"? I really don't know what the fuck you were thinking. crushed.... I've never experience this kind of sadness before.... I fucking hate the fact the i love you and i can't stop doing it. I love you too much and as much as i would like to blame you, i can't. It's my fault things turned out like this. I don't know how i'll be able to move on from this. I don't think i'll ever will. I'm dying inside and i just thought you should know.... I will never stop loving you... I am disgusted with myself for being so weak....... | Comments: What's on your mind?   |
| | Security: | | | Subject: | Changes | | Time: | 07:37 pm | | Current Mood: |  blah |
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| | Wow, two years have passed. A lot has changed since then. I believe i'm still the same though. Still the same old me. Life has been really rough. Especially now... Things at home are fucked up but i'll always keep my head up. Staying positive is hard but that's the best thing to do. Look forward and move on. Life won't stop for nobody. Gotta be head strong. Another major change in life is that girl. That one girl that has been on this journal all these while. She's gone... It hurts me so bad. The cuts are deep. I'll get by without her but it'll be hard. I've been feeling so empty without her. Now if i speak of her, you can sense the desperation in my voice. I'm not afraid to admit that i'm desperate to have her back in my life. The sad thing is, i may be a tad too late.... Nothing but regret in my heart.... I'm lucky though to have friends that stuck by my side during these hard times but baby it's just so hard without you.... I don't think i can do it. They say "forgiveness is the final form of love" So baby, please forgive me and let me in once again... I swear i'll make things right this time. | | Comments: What's on your mind? |
| | Current Music: | The Fray - You Found Me | | Security: | | | Subject: | Marissa oh marissa | | Time: | 01:55 am | | Current Mood: |  loved |
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| | Every single thing i did for you was well worth it. Every single sacrifice. We do have our bad days but i only remember the joy that you've given me. Nothing else. The only reason why those bad days happen is for us to enjoy greater happiness then we already have. I tend to see it that way. You do not have to doubt my love for you, even for a split second. Even someone that could only see darkness and nothing else would find you a beautiful individual. You truly are amazing. How patient you are with me. That's a rare attribute and for you to be that patient with me, i'm such a lucky young fool. Sometimes i don't even think i deserve you. I hate making you feel hurt deep inside. I really do hate it. It hurts me just as much as it hurts you. I could never in my entire lifetime repay you for all the things you did for me. Oh girl, no matter what happens to us in the future, it does not matter. You'll always be on my mind and in my heart. Forever and beyond. I love you so much baby (: | | Comments: What's on your mind? |
| | A lot has happened since the last entry. Both good and bad. Things are different now and they'll never be the same again. Ever. Which is sad. I've tried my very best to fix things but i guess it's just meant to be. People change, i can't deny that. To believe that somebody is still the same as we remember them to be is being ignorant of reality. Let me just say i'm a realist but i can't deny that i've been doing that for the past few months. The truth is all i wanted to say is i miss my friends. The friends i knew. Maybe the them i knew were the fake ones and the one right now are the real ones. Whatever the case maybe, i'll never forget them. Till now i still wish that things would be just like last time. I'll always remember them as the one i knew and not the one i know. Fake or real it does not matter to me at all. Thank you my dear friends for the memories. | | Comments: What's on your mind? |
| | Racism is caused by value, and can only be erased by equality. But at the cost of happiness and freedom. The freedom to hate is equal to the freedom to love, erase one you erase the other. Racism is as wrong as it is beautiful. | | Comments: What's on your mind? |
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Hafizah, nothing in this world can compare to what you mean to me. I feel happy everytime i'm around you. You're on my mind and in my heart 24/7. When you're not with me i miss you so much. Even if we just met each other 5 minutes ago i''ll still miss you when i'm not by your side. I can never get enough of your love. I'm willing to do just about anything to make you smile. I'll always be here for you no matter what. I'll support you in whatever you do.You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. You're my no. 1. You're my wonderwall. You're my drug. You're my addiction. You're my everything and i'm proud to call you my baby (: I LOVE LOVE LOVE YOU with all my heart and soul.
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Izhhar Iskandar
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